Not much new. I am enjoying the cool (cold) weather, and just waiting for this baby to be born. I am due on the 23rd, but if she doesn't come before then, I might go in on the 21st to have my water broke and get the show on the road. My midwives are not usually too quick to jump the gun, but since I have such big babies, and my last baby had shoulder dystocia (she got a little stuck on her way out, but the midwife flipped me onto my back, and she came right out) and since I am so very uncomfortable, my midwife is more than willing to go a little early.

The girls hanging out on the deck...




Yeah, not sure why I can't keep up in here. Maybe it is the same reason I can't even keep up with my house.



I am so very tired and huge and have so much back and hip pain, that I can barely function many days. It has seemed to improve lately, so maybe these last two months won't be so bad.


Other than that, we are all doing great. Gwendolyn is 18 months old now! Where does the time go? She is starting to say more words now, and signs quite a bit too. If she doesn't know how to say something, she is usually pretty good at letting you know what she wants, or at least getting your attention! lol Lately she has really turned into a little "Daddy's girl". :) More often than not, if he is home, she wants him over me. It is ok by me, because that should help her transition when the baby comes.

Amelia is wonderful too. She is learning how to read, and can sound out easy words very well. I just need to work on phonics with her, but she really catches on fast! She read a simple reader last night with very little help. Amelia will be starting preschool in a couple weeks. She is very nervous about it. She is excited, but at the same time scared about being by herself. That is the biggest reason we decided to send her to preschool, because she is quite shy and can be very overwhelmed by a group. Preschool should be a good way to introduce her to school without such a big class like kindergarten. (Preschool has a max of 16 kids, with two teachers, vs however many there are in a K. class.) It is also only 2 days a week, 3 hours per day. Anyway, hoping that will help.


Eric and I are doing great. I am so very blessed to have such a great husband. He is so patient and good to me, and such a great dad! He is doing fine at work. He still has a job, and isn't too worried about losing it, so we are ahead there. It would be nice if his commute wasn't so long (traffic really sucks on this side of the city) but it could be worse.


Eric and I about two weeks ago.

Some pictures

I know I don't update like I should, but here are some pictures for now anyway. :)


Just some of Gwendolyn's many expressions... :)







This is her "really really happy face"! LOL

Amelia and I spent a day at the Horse Expo with my mom. Amelia of course had to ride the horses and ponies, a few times. ;)

Aren't I huge? The sad part is this picture is now a month old, so I was only 16 weeks in this picture. I suppose I should take a 20 week one.

Got to meet our newest family member on Memorial weekend. Such a cutie! Amelia is sitting with her cousins and holding baby Drake. Eric's brother Dave and his wife Jill are the proud parents.

Amelia with my grandma on Memorial weekend.


Our little family

Snow in April

It is April 2nd, and there is still snow on the ground from the snow that fell on Monday. It just isn't right having snow in April. :P It should be gone by this weekend though, and hopfully stays away so spring can come for good!

Gwendolyn really likes Baby Einstein.

Me and my girls!

The snowflakes we had coming down yesterday were the biggest I think I have ever seen. Some were like golf ball size. (Yes, I know they weren't single flakes, but bunches together, but still way cool!)

I can't leave Gwendolyn alone in the livingroom/kitchen area anymore, because this is what I find when I come back.

She is constantly climbing up on the table. Even when I am right there, she does it, then gets all excited like it is a game when I come to get her.

She also knows how to push Amelia's step stool to the part of the counter she wants so she can play with stuff. Today I had put Amelia's leftover lunch on the counter so Gwendolyn wouldn't get it if she climbed on the table. I waited about 2 minutes before following her into the kitchen (thinking she would be on the table) and instead I find her up at the counter eating covered in ketchup and eating chips, and a hotdog on the floor.

She definitely keeps me busy! lol

I am so tired of being tired.

I have been exhausted lately. So much so that I am constantly "out of it". It is the reason I haven't updated in so long.
Part of the problem is that I am pregnant. Yes, for anyone who didn't know, we are expecting #3! I am excited about it, it is a very good and blessed thing, but I am still tired. Mostly though, I am tired because my hypothyroidism and adrenal fatigue have hit me hard. I can tell the difference from just being tired, pregnancy tired, and hypo/AF tired. This is hypo/AF tired. I am sure the pregnancy had something to do with my hypo/AF getting worse, but I am so sick of being tired it isn't funny. In the last two years I have felt human for about a month. I took some of my hydorcortisone for a few weeks in January, and it is amazing how normal I felt. I actually was able to get through the day with out napping, and without even feeling the need to nap. I had the ambition to clean my house, and KEEP it clean. I wanted to play with my kids, and see my friends. It wasn't like I was full of crazy energy, I was just normal, or almost normal anyway.
I always feel like I am lazy. I should just "buck up" and make myself do the things a normal person would do. If I just do it, I will get the energy. It is so not true. In fact, I just plain old don't have the stamina to do more than survive most days.


Copied from my hypothyroidism blog...
I read something in the book "Adrenal Fatigue" that really hit home for me. ....
"These people may appear to friends and family to be lazy and unmotivated, or to have lost their ambition, when in reality quite the opposite is true; they are forced to drive themselves much harder than people with healthy adrenal function merely to accomplish life's everyday tasks."

That is exactly how it is for me. I really struggle with making it from one day to another much of the time.
I am very blessed to have a husband who understands (or at least tries to) and helps me when I need it.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel though. I didn't take the medication when I was pregant and breastfeeding Gwendolyn because the doctor said it was a "C" drug and I shouldn't. I did some shallow reasearch that scared be into agreeing with him, so instead, I just felt like crap for two years.
Now that I am pregnant, and looking forward to another two years of this, I did much deeper research, and found that at the low doses that I would be taking, and the reason I am taking it, there is actually very little risk to the baby. I am still going to wait until my second trimester, to be extra catious, but the doctor has pretty much agreed to let me go on it next month!
I am so, so, so looking forward to being able to function normally (or at least almost normally) again!

Feb 2008

I haven't been updating like I should. I feel like I have been super busy doing nothing. It is all good though. I have had a bit more energy lately, and am really enjoying my girls. :) (And my hubby too, of course!)

Just thought I would share a few pics...

Amelia played dress up with Gwendolyn last week.






We made a snow man when we had a warm spell. Amelia named him Frosty, the same name she picked for my mom's new colt.

I made Amelia a couple Barbie dresses a couple weeks ago. She like them. She has really gotten into barbies lately.

This is what my cats do most of the day. What a life I tell you. Heh, heh.

Gwendolyn "playing barbies" with Amelia. Gwendolyn was sitting in the barbie box. She really likes going over things, or inside things, climbing, ect.

God has blessed us with a New Year! Welcome 2009

2008 was a year to remember. Gwendolyn was born in Feb, and Grandpa went to Heaven in November. Eric was switched to a new area of the company after some worry that he might lose his job. The Lord has blessed us a lot with Eric's job. So many people have been laid off, and he has kept his job, and his new job seems to be nicer so far then the last.
Amelia turned four, and continues to wow us with how smart she is.
Besides birthing a baby, I have grown closer to God the last few months, and it has improved my outlook a lot! Life is so much better when you put your life in God's hands, instead of your own!


I look forward to 2009, and what God has in store for us next! :)

Christmas 2008

Christmas was nice. We got to spend Christmas Eve with my family, and Christmas Day with Eric's family.

It did seem that too much time was spent on gifts both days, and not enough time just being together. It wasn't bad, just something we might need to think about next year.
We did talk to Amelia a lot about what Christmas really means, and why we celebrate it, and what is important. She "gets" it. :)

We got Amelia just one gift, but it was a "big" one. She got a VTech Motion video game console. We aren't really impressed with it, as it is not always easy to make work right, and the graphics are not very good, but Amelia likes playing it, so that is good.


Just a few pictures from Christmas.

We will miss you grandpa!

I haven't posted in a while because my grandpa passed away last month, and I just didn't feel up to blogging it.

It still doesn't seem real, and yet, life goes on.

He will be so dearly missed!

Marvin Dresler
November 21 1935-November 26 2008


The Lord made it known to us in several ways that Grandpa is Home with the Lord!
God is such a great comforter! It is so wonderful to know for sure that grandpa is in heaven with Jesus!

It doesn't take the pain away, but it certainly does help.